Journey to Justice: A Mother's Prospective
Right from the beginning, Shawn's arrest and then sentencing has been a hard pill for me to swallow. No mother wishes to see a child in prison, but when it happens...what then? For me, it couldn't have come at a worst time. I was still deep in the grip of my breakdown, still not able to function mentally and emotionally...and I know that I wept a lot during this time. I couldn't believe that my son, a big, huggable teddy bear that everyone loved, could do something so terrible. It just didn't fit. Shawn's case was high profile, this was a big deal in a county that is one of the biggest in New York, and as much as I wanted to be there for my son...I couldn't. I couldn't make myself go to the court hearings, I didn't want to be seen by the public or in the media...as I said, I was having a very hard time coping. A war raged inside of me then too...unending questions, uncertainties, blaming myself, even though I did my best to bring my son up righ...