A New Beginning
When I had my breakdown in the Winter of 2001, it was a shattering of my entire being...physically, mentally and emotionally. Like the shattered mirror...that's how I viewed myself...I could no longer see myself clearly as a person. Every bit of me felt disconnected. I truly believed that I would never see the day ahead of me where I was once again whole...and I may never see myself as whole...but I've found a beginning point over the last few days. It wasn't until just recently, when discussing things with someone that I had just met and while describing the things that had happened to me in the past, he told me that "whatever it is you are looking for isn't in the past". That had to be the most profound thing I've ever heard...and made more sense to me than anything I've done or tried. It's like I was given a key to the lock that has kept me from moving forward with my self and my life. I have been trying so hard to piece myself ...