The Move
There was a time in my life that I was a big risk-taker...I didn't hesitate to take a leap of faith and just go for it. As I entered motherhood, and being a wife that changed...it was no longer necessary to act quite so impulsively. (That's not saying that this move is impulsive...it's been carefully planned over the last couple of months!) I quit taking risks, and settled into a life of just going with the flow that life was taking me...whether I liked it or not.
Then, having the nervous breakdown in 2001...well, I didn't welcome any kind of changes, hated even having my routine broke up...let alone taking any form of risks...I was too afraid. But having met the man I will be sharing my life and future with, he broke through that wall of fear and gave me back to myself...something that I have needed and couldn't do (or find) on my own.
I know that this is not a cure for my depression, but it will certainly help lessen it so that the down days will come less often. I am still dependent on my happy pills though...without them, I still cry too easily over what is really petty things, and I also have learned my antidepressants help me focus better and I am a much calmer person over-all.
With this move though, comes an adjustment that I am hoping will pass somewhat easily mentally and emotionally...that being having spent the last 9 years living with my 3 grand-children from the moment they were born...leaving them and living a daily life without them is going to be a change that is necessary. For them...and for me. We have become far too co-dependent on each other, which for me isn't (and hasn't been) a good thing...not really.
As I begin my new journey and new life, I will be taking pictures along the way, and my next blog entry will detail my travels to my new home in Wisconsin....so...stay tuned!
And as always...thanks for reading! 8 )
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